You do not have to have all the qualities what is the probability that the employer will find the ”perfect person” who has all the qualities. Concentrate on the skills you have .
being in a place which makes you happy, even if you do not have job will free you and your mind. You will discover the other world, which is so addictive. You know you should not stay in it but something drags you back in. Does this mean that you become dangerous to those who work?
Ex-bread earner talk,